Finding somewhere to live

One of the worst things about splitting up when you live together is that you have to find somewhere new to live; you have to go back to your old house to move all of your things, and you have to be really nice to your new landlady to get her to let you move in your cats whom your ex despises and wont keep at the house they've lived in for 3 years.

That's after trawling the internet, estate agents and friends to find somewhere to live in the first place.

I've managed to get accomodation for one of my cats at my mum's, he likes to spend all day outside and sleeps at night; the other one sleeps all day and harrasses people at night, so my mum won't have him.

I'm not looking forward to ringing around all the usual places to change my address again.... AND now I have to buy all the household things again, you know, bed, vaccuum, sofas, cutlery, pans, tv. I already owned most of this stuff, but seeing as I'm being forced to leave my six year old son I can't leave him with a single chair to sit on.

Not Fun.

Janes Addiction at Manchester MEN

Went to see Jane's Addiction at the Manchester MEN on 14/07/2009 - I have to say it was quite surreal; I became a fan of Jane's well after their third(?) split, after Strays anyway, led to their majesty by the fantastic guitar work by one Dave Navarro on the Red Hot Chili Pepper's One Hot Minute; immediately hooked by Janes' fabulous approach to rock I was slightly disappointed with the prospect of never seeing them live because of their infamous feuding.

After hearing of their reuinion for the NME Godlike Genious award a small germ of hope was planted in my soul that they may tour and come to the UK; and then they did.

After enduring the opening act, Mew, I was ready for a band with some real presence and I wasn't disappointed; a screen came down and a projection of a young boy looking forward to seeing Jane's is talking to his father when Perry Farrell appears; the band's shadow was cast behind and the crowd's anticipation grew, when the screen went up it boiled over, Three Days kicked off and it was amazing. Dave showed why he's one of the most sought after guitarists around; Perry was bouncing around the stage like a hamster on fire; Eric was steady chocking out those bass lines, and Perky hiding behind his kit cut quite a storm.

Classic track after classic track I was enthralled; the encore of Stop was marred only by it being Jane's final song of the evening, and NIN as good as they were couldn never hope to dislodge Jane's Addiction as the greates act of the evening. The chance of new material seems slim, but this Jane's fan holds out hope!!

Acceptance

I think I've accepted the situation; I've been looking for places to live, I'm going to see a life coach to see how to get back on track; now though I'm not supposed to go to my own house to see my own son, "I don't think it's a good idea" she says.

To be honest, she's right; I need to stop seeing her completely, I'm going to have to get people to drop off/pick him up for me :'-(

Though I might have accepted the relationship's over, I'm now utterly depressed because of that acceptance, I realise what I have lost and I also realise it wasn't my fault.

It's been nearly two weeks; it's still impossible to accept. I miss her so much it's killing me.

I've been out with friends, but you can't go out with friends every evening; so now I'm at my parents house browsing the internet listening to audio plays, it's not how I saw my life. I want to be at home in my house, watching my television with my fiancee. But no, all I have are thoughts of what she's doing and who with and it taints my soul.